Tuesday, 14 June 2016

What it feels like to delete your entire blog


I wrote a little blog once upon a time for a little over a year. It was nothing big or special, I was no supperblogger. I didn’t have thousands of followers hanging on my every word, but I loved it and I loved writing. I never lost interest in blogging but sadly like so many blogs online, mine didn’t make it the distance. At a particularly low point in 2013, I deleted the entire thing and and moved on with my life. Seeing as your reading this, you know I returned to the blogosphere, but I wanted to share my experience of what it was like to destroy something that I had worked so hard on.

Why did I do it?

There are a lot of reasons why I decided to quit my blog. It was a huge time constraint which I (naively) wasn’t expecting. I was in my third year of university, and hats off to any blogger that manages to do both, but managing my degree and my blog meant that they both started to suffer. I’m naturally a perfectionist and end up being my own harshest critic. I just hated that the quality of my blog posts were slipping and I never felt like I had enough time to follow through on any of my big ideas. I struggled with stats, I wanted to grow and meet people but it didn’t come as quickly as I had hoped and I didn’t have a huge amount of time to put into social media. This wasn’t a huge reason for deciding to stop, but let’s be real, every blogger feels a little bit of blogger envy at the worst of times. These are all big excuses and I know that there are people who are able to work three jobs a post daily but I was personally really struggling and I didn’t want to do it half-heartedly. The biggest push when it came to the delete button was when someone close to me said 'why bother? you'll never get anywhere with it anyway'. It hit me quite hard that they thought I was wasting my time. I suddenly felt  that my little blog wasn't good enough to be a part of the patchwork blogosphere that I love so much. So after when very sad day, an overwhelmed me logged on and hit delete. No back up, no restore button. It was just gone. 

Life without blogging

I managed to graduate last year which I’m sure I would have done if I had continued blogging however, I know I put my whole heart into my degree in the end. The last few months were long and late hours in the library, and practically no time for anything else. I never want to blog if I don’t feel like I cant give it the time it deserves, so in a way I’m very grateful I decided to end it when I did. I have never lost my interest in blogging, I love reading blogs and have done so every day since I stopped writing for myself. Even my dissertation was about bloggers! My mind has never really left this wonderful space made up of creators, I was a little lost without it to be honest.

A fresh start

My first blog was riddled with rookie mistakes. I’ve grown up a lot in the last few years and I’m ready to get back into it. I’ve always loved blogging and I’m ready to put my heart and soul into this little space of the blogosphere. This is a completely new blog with all new posts and ideas bubbling up. I’ve spent a lot of time planning ‘What Natalie knows’ and I really feel that this time is different. This is a place for well thought out posts that I’ve worked hard to produce. I’m here to create content I can look back and feel good about sharing.

Thinking of deleting?
  • It’s okay to take a little break from blogging, the delete button is a drastic approach and its often just a rash reaction
  • A refresh in content or design might be more what you’re looking for, this can be done without starting again
  • If you’re thinking of starting a blog, really plan out what you want to blog about and how you want it to look before you start
  • Chat to other bloggers when you’re feeling down, everyone loses inspiration sometimes, none of us are strangers to a little bloggers block
  • Lastly, it’s okay if life gets in the way. Give yourself a break sometimes, you’re only human

Have you ever deleted a blog? What do you struggle with as a blogger? 

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  1. I have been feeling down lately and I sometimes just feel like I need to delete my blog as I don't see it growing and I sometimes feel like it is just a waste of time. Although I am trying to get better at managing my time and feelings it is still a little hard to manage both life and a blog xx

    Sarah | What Sarah Writes

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    1. I think so many people relate to that and feel the same so you are not alone! It's always hard to juggle two things but if you really love it, its worth it. Try and focus on the positives rather than growth goals, it leads to much happier thoughts <3

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